When Pain Is A Pain

I have been a chronic pain sufferer for over 20 years.  It started with a botched knee surgery when I was 15, followed by a triple fracture to my lumbar in my early 30’s and these have resulted in osteoarthritis in all of my joints, fibromyalgia and a few other pesky conditions.

At the moment I am experiencing excruciating pain in my lower back and sides.  I have built up a high tolerance as well as many coping mechanisms; however there comes a point when it just all becomes too much.  I am there today.  There is no comfortable position for more than 5 minutes and even the strongest of medications is not making a dent.

I am so glad my hubby is at work and I am alone because the dog and cat don’t mind me crying like a baby and praying (almost begging) to the Lord for mercy and relief.  Because I am able to handle a lot of pain, I am not proud of these moments, but sometimes you just need to let it all out.

I mentioned I attended a chronic pain management clinic.  The people who run this program are angels.  They haven’t been through what any of us have, but they use their areas of expertise to guide the group to a better understanding of what is wrong and what to do about it.

I think the best thing about this group however, is that you are in a room with 8 other people who DO KNOW exactly how you feel.  They GET IT.  While each one’s pain story is different, the fact that it is pain is a bond that is very strong.  You feel safe sharing your weakness because they feel the same way at times.  There were times when the leaders would just let us talk because we were able to help each other.

Rarely were we asked “what is your pain level on a scale of 1 – 10” or told “there is nothing we can do for you”.  They couldn’t take away the pain but they armed us with enough ammunition to keep it under control.

Besides pacing, I learned how controlling my breathing helps control the pain.  Exhaling as you get up or down gives strength and also takes focus off the pain – you are concentrating on your breathing.  Relaxation exercises, exercise (mild of course), rest, and meditation are all ways of coping with even the worst attack.

So what am I doing about my pain today?  After allowing to feel sorry for myself for just a brief moment, I am writing this post, and planning to curl up in my special lift recliner with a heated blanket on my back, my wonderful mutt and kitty near by, and my crochet or a good book.  Later, I will do some gentle exercise and call a friend.

Having a history of depression and bipolar does not bode well with the pain monster.  However I do what I can to keep moods in check…which is why I allow myself a good cry once in awhile.

I would really love to hear from others who deal with pain on a regular basis.  How do you cope?


6 Replies to “When Pain Is A Pain”

  1. I don’t have pain nearly as often or, I suspect, as bad as what you go through. When I do have severe pain (kidney stones, which I haven’t had in awhile, thank goodness, and occasional other pains) one of the things that gets me through is thinking of you and other friends I have who have severe pain issues. No matter how bad it is, I know that there are others who have it worse than I do. It helps me pray for them as I pray for my pain to go away. One of my worst pain issues was a severe itch that I had for years. I will just say it was in a very bad place to have a deep itch, and at times I scraped the skin right off, it was so bad. I finally found an eczema cream that worked. One of the ways I learned to handle itching was, as weird as it seems, to kind of dig my fingernails into my arm or my leg. It confused my brain and sometimes the itch lessened a little.

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  2. Hey there just listened to the song Just Breathe some good things about coming to His feet and resting back, take a listen to the song My Praise Overflows by Tom Field it talks about when strength is weak and hope seems lost great lyrics. It came to my mind when the pain specialist took what felt like all hope away when he said there was nothing more he can do for my Chronic neck pain which is debilitating and constant. I was gutted, cried a lot but a still small voice said “Hope is not completely lost when you keep your eyes on the cross.” I’m still tearful and angry as like you I’m managing Chronic pain, plus depression and digestive problems but talking to God in prayer and hugs from friends make days more bearable. God bless you and thanks for sharing. Steph x

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    1. Thanks, Steph, for sharing and I will check out that song for sure! Consider yourself getting another hug from a friend! We are in this war against chronic pain/illness not only together, but with the best General ever! ❤

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