My friend challenged me to write a letter to my body for all that it has done for me. It is so easy to believe that my body has failed me, but the more I thought about what she said, the more I thought I could do this!
You have been with me through me whole life and I have taken you for granted. I just wanted to thank you for hanging in there even when things have been really rough.
To my hands – now you are crippled up and sore, but when I think of all I have done thanks to you it boggles the mind! I played the piano, and to a lesser extent the guitar and I even tried the violin! I have done all sorts of crafts since the time I was really young including crochet, drawing, doing string art pictures to earn Christmas money, sewing by hand and machine and so much more. I love to write and for all the years before computers you held my pen and created every word; then you started clicking on the keys to make my words come to life even faster. I can’t forget how you have worked so hard in my love for cooking and baking – all the cakes I have created and fancy dishes. During my culinary school and work in catering you never failed me.
To my legs – I have probably been the hardest on you over the years. I have fallen on my knees, broken toes, twisted ankles and dislocated my hip. My poor knee has gone through so much with a skiing accident at 15 requiring surgery and then 35 years later getting a full knee replacement. You have taken me on so many journeys short and long. You have stood in lines, walked for miles and even tried to get me running – I think you were willing but my lungs were a little weak!
To my back – You have been a literal pain for the last 20+ years. But I don’t hold that against you. I would be a little cranky too having been fractured in three places in the lumbar! You could have given up and I might never have walked again but you didn’t. And today as I have grown stronger in my self-love, you stand up straight and proud! So many times you could have given in and yet you didn’t. I can live with a little pain when the alternative would be to not walk or even sit up. I thank you for helping me to stand tall.
To my lungs – Yes, you have asthma and I am allergic to a ton of things. One of you was collapsed, you have dealt with pneumonia and other infections more than once. But you keep on going and and keep me going. When I am dealing with a lot of pain, you help me breathe it out and when I am going through anxiety, you help me to calm myself.
To my shoulders – I have broken each collarbone twice but you have taken a lot of weight over the years both literally and figuratively. You also help me to stand tall and show the world that I am strong.
To my face – as I look back on old pictures I see you so much differently than I did when they were taken. You were a pretty little girl and grew up to be a pretty woman. My eyes, you have seen a lot, both good and bad. My mouth, you have learned to speak up and be quiet at the right times. My ears, you have heard a lot, but process only what matters.
To my body as a whole – you have taken a lot of abuse from me and others and I admit we have had a love-hate relationship. However, with all that my mind has had to process with mental illness, pain, emotional, physical and sexual abuse, you have endured and I have come to appreciate and love you…..love ME just as I am.
Here’s to many more years together.