Chronic pain can really take a toll on a person’s entire life. You are never able to give a definitive answer as to whether you can attend or do anything until the last minute. Even then, you might get there and have to turn around and go home.
I have certainly become the wet rag in my social circles. Though I know that no one is holding it against me or thinking I just don’t want to be there, I really hate getting invitations. It is not that I don’t want to go, it is because I do and I don’t want to get my hopes up.
Tonight, I had a chance to go to a once in a lifetime event – the farewell movie for the Women of Faith Conference series. I mentioned it a few posts back. When I first found out about it I didn’t realize it was on the same day that I promised a friend I would go to an important appointment in the morning. I am not a morning person and had a rough time getting to sleep last night so after we came back and I did my stuff to get hubby to work I crashed.
So, here I am home alone again when I could be enjoying a night out with a bunch of women I truly enjoy, watching a bunch of women I truly enjoy. Am I sad? Maybe a little disappointed. Am I feeling sorry for myself? Heck no!
I pulled up my Women of Faith CD’s on my playlist and cranked them up loud while I went through my reader feed and am now typing this! I am getting more uplifted with every song! And after this, it is a date with a couple of other women I truly enjoy – Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy) and Olivia Pope (Scandal) while I tidy up during commercials and exercise during the shows.
Yes, I would have loved to have gone out tonight; however, what I did do today was very important and I know much appreciated. I also am learning that taking care of myself first is not only the way it has to be but the way I like my life!