I am feeling like a ten-ton weight has been lifted from me tonight. And while the weight is a bit of an exaggeration, I am purging a good amount of stuff out of this place as we get ready to move. And aside from the actual physical items, an emotional weight is gone as well.
Tonight I offered all of my cake decorating equipment to a young woman who has a natural gift for decorating like I have never seen before. Baking is what she has set as her career path, and if I can do anything to help her, I am happy to. Kay is taking some items as well, that I had promised her awhile ago.
Why is this such a relief to me? While I have some talent when it comes to designing and decorating, my execution over the past while has suffered due to my arthritis and my moods. I stress out over deadlines and perfection. I wanted to try different techniques, have fun with it but there was never enough time, or I wouldn’t feel up to it…always an excuse. I think it was more self-doubt in my skills. Or maybe I just wanted to like it but didn’t.
How did I come to the decision to off-load this expensive hobby? I looked around the office, cluttered with all of Hubby’s tools, computer equipment, what is left of his lighting hobby that didn’t go to his brother’s house, along with all my cake, crochet, papercraft and sewing stuff. Something needed to go and I prayed for even a small hint. I looked up at all the cake stuff and just knew that I had been given my answer.
Besides the physical and emotional strains this has had on my life, neither Hubby or I should be eating a lot of sugar, wheat, eggs, chocolate, dairy and just about anything else that goes into a cake. I figure the only way I am going to really kick my addiction to sugar and chocolate is to not have it around. A 4 tier wedding cake is not the best thing to be working on!
So, next comes the job of sorting all the items out and getting ready for her to pick them up on Sunday. This will be a labour of love for sure!