I have been depressed in waves over the last week or so. I am not sure what triggered it or exactly when it started. I just know it is not something I was expecting.
That isn’t to say that I plan to get depressed, or manic or anything. My moods have just been so level (notice I don’t say “normal”) for years that when I do experience a change it catches me off guard.
It is especially troubling when I can’t find a reason for the shift. I have been experiencing some new acute pain lately, along with trouble from my hernia and throat – ongoing problems that have both been worse than usual lately.
I spent much of the weekend sleeping; however, I felt it was more about catching up from months of insomnia than from being depressed. When I sleep because of depression it is more just not being able to get out of bed. This time, it was being up for a few hours, getting tired and going to sleep. A much different pattern.
I haven’t had any changes in my medication unless you factor in taking a few extra Emtec (like Tylenol 3 without caffeine) for tooth and/or back pain over the last few weeks. I only take them when I really need them and they have never depressed me before.
As for emotional factors, I have been doing really well. Hubby and I are getting along so well, I am very happy with my writing “career” taking shape, and I am starting to look after my self-image through diet, exercise, etc.
Whatever the reason for this small blip of depression in an otherwise peaceful and happy existence, I am not going to let it get me down (pun intended)! Just talking about it here is helping me gain control once again! Thanks for “listening/reading”.