My grandmother used to twist the old cliche around to her version “You are only as young as you feel” (as opposed to old).
Today I turn 58 and, while I was dreading it for the last several months, I actually am very comfortable with my age. My problem was that 58 is too close to 60!
For some reason, I had this misconceived notion that 60 was “old”. I don’t know where I got that from. My grandmother was in her prime in her 60’s and if cancer and a heart condition hadn’t taken her at 72, I am sure she would have been rockin’ it into her 90’s (and I don’t mean in a rocking chair!).
When I was in my twenties I had a great job, dressed the way I wanted to, had a condo, and a bunch of friends. As I headed into 30’s and 40’s, mental and then physical illness plagued my life.
Now that I have really found myself as a person again outside of my health problems, I don’t want to seem “old” because there is so much life to catch up on. But I am doing that! I always wanted to be a writer – duh, what am I doing right this minute! LOL. I have found my style back that I had before depression, bipolar and pain made sweats and loose fitting dresses my “uniform” of choice.
I ran into my ex a year ago and we talked for all of two minutes. I made a comment to my hubby that the guy looked “old”. Hubby said, “well he is!” It had been almost 15 years since I last saw him so ya, he WAS old, so am I!
My Life Coach is the same age as me and when I mentioned awhile back that I did not want to be 58, she was all over me, saying that we are in our prime, we are strong, vibrant, beautiful women and that is when I think I started to realize that age is just a number.
A very dear sweet friend of mine, who I have never met in person but who is like a sister to me (and is a sister in Christ), set up a Facebook event for my birthday a couple of weeks ago. She asked people to wish me happy birthday and post something, anything, purple! It is amazing how many people have posted there and some have left several purple images. They are amazing presents because they are from the heart. Barbarian, if your intent was to cheer me up and get my mind off my health problems, you have totally succeeded.
Another age thing on my mind is my 40th reunion coming up next Saturday. I was worrying what people would think of how I have aged. Silly, me, we are all in the same boat!
So, I toast to my 59th year and my 60th after that!