While I have related to them, I have not reblogged a challenge post of any kind before, but this SLS pick by the challenge creator, Helen Vahdati, is like no other.
Right from the title, then into the lyrics and the way Jessie J sings it I felt it. Its meaning is both literally and figuratively strong for me. It meets me in
– the stark rooms at the hospital where I so often stayed during my late 20’s and through my 30’s to help stabilize my mental illnesses
– the places in my mind I would go to try and hide from all the bullying and criticism
– the various homes I lived in where I felt trapped by my fears of the world.
– the relationships that were unhealthy but I couldn’t seem to escape from.
Jessie J is one of those singers who can not just sing a song but she can make you feel it, whether it is your story or not. This one is definitely my story.
Or at least it was… it isn’t anymore.
Lydia!
Fear is a pretty powerful thing. I find it interesting that some scary movies out there actually deal with overcoming fear even while they’re trying to scare you to death. Gotta love those jump-scares though. They get me almost every time.
I first started thinking about songs with zombies and other types of scary movie horrors, but then I came across this song this morning and I knew it was going to be my song. I remember the first time my daughter played it for me. We were in the car, driving home from school. I cried while I was listening to it. Not only does Jessie J sing it masterfully (especially in the live, acoustic version), but the lyrics are powerful. They don’t contain the word “fear”, but they do refer to a genuine fear that I’ve dealt with in the past.
I do hope you enjoy!
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Being Lydia! 