Chronic Compromises – “A Large Mocha Iced Capp No Whip, Please!”

I spent several years cooking for my Dad and his diabetes, so I knew the basics from the outside when my diagnosis came. What surprised, even shocked me, was the internal turmoil of sugar highs and lows.

I have had a binging disorder most of my life. I don’t purge; I gorge on foods behind “closed doors.” If I get one bite of a chocolate chip cookie, for example, I want to eat half a dozen cookies.

Whenever I was on a diet, I would put up a good front, but behind the scenes, I ate anything I wanted – the worse, the better!

Naturally, this was the first thing I had to deal with before committing to a diabetes diet.

  • I removed the Costco-sized supply of Chocolate chips from my baking pantry and put them in the freezer. I then asked my husband to bury them, so they were there if I needed them but not for eating a handful.
  • I stocked the fridge and pantry with healthy snacks, including fruits and veggies, nuts, seeds, etc.
  • For now, I am allowing myself two things – pretzels and veggie dip – which I can control the amounts and still feel satisfied.
  • I am, for now, not doing any “regular” baking. I will continue with the gluten and other free loaves, muffins, etc., that both my hubby and I can eat, making sure they are within the guidelines of diabetes cooking.

What does this have to do with the title?

Last week we went on a drive to get out of the house. It was a beautiful day, and being a Covid shut-in, I could use some fresh air. When we started to head back, I needed some food. I asked if we could stop at Tim Horton’s so I could have my last Iced Capp. They were one of my go-to’s when I needed a sugar fix.

I agreed to have a sausage and egg wrap for some protein to go with the frosty sweet drink. The wrap was good; however, the drink was most satisfying.

Oh, I started to take prednisone that morning because my asthma, cough, and breathing were not getting any better. After nine years, I forgot that we needed to be extra careful with Dad’s sugar intake when on prednisone.

When we got home, I was starting to shake inside and out. My head was racing, and I felt weak. It wasn’t like anything I had felt before. It took us a few minutes to figure out it could be my blood sugar level. I have a few strips for my Dad’s old glucose monitor, so I checked and got a reading of 18.9, about double what a random high should be.

Instantly we realized it was the Iced Capp. It took a little longer to factor in the prednisone. I had to stop that for a couple of days anyway as I had a breathing test.

In the next few days, I had another high level and a low.  I don’t have many blood test strips left, and my meter doesn’t want to hold a charge, so I have to learn to watch my intake and symptoms manually until I can get my GP to authorize a new one. I take this as a good thing because I have had to listen to my body for years with my other chronic illnesses.

I will be on prednisone for another ten days and at intervals for the rest of my life. I need to be able to find the right balance between these two conditions and all my others. My specialist increased my metformin for at least until I am done the prednisone. The doctor and my husband both said they were proud of the effort I am making to deal with these new health challenges. I am proud of me too…and the 7 pounds I have lost in two weeks!

The one thing I know for sure, that was definitely my last Iced Capp.



10 Replies to “Chronic Compromises – “A Large Mocha Iced Capp No Whip, Please!””

  1. Congrats on the weight loss, Lydia! I know the struggle is REAL! 🙂

    My mom had scleroderma and took prednisone for over 20 years. She wasn’t diabetic, but still struggled with the affects of the meds.

    Sending you hugs and good wishes for continued success.

    (And you were right – I love my Hurrycane! 😀 😀 )

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    1. Thanks, Felicia. I have actually lost a total of 19, but these last 7 took awhile and then practically melted off with the Metformin and cutting out as much as I can from my diet. Pred plays havoc with my moods and there isn’t much choice – breathe or be grumpy for 15 – 20 days. Now we add in sugar highs and lows!


    1. Thanks, Kathy! It hasn’t been easy but there is no point in not accepting it! I loved your post but didn’t get a chance to let you know I tweeted and posted to my FB page!


  2. Those ice capps are so good. Even though I am not diabetic, I have really tried to reduce my sugar intake. It takes so much discipline to stay on top of things, Lydia. You are doing amazing.


    1. Thanks, Carl. I have managed to keep my vow of no more Ice Capps but have had a few other slip-ups (I had to find a no-sugar-added ice cream). I have lost a total of 27 pounds and while I still have a ways to go I am proud of how I am doing.

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