Well, October 4th marked a major milestone in my life. I am now 60 years old.
I remember when I was going through my worst years of mental illness I couldn’t see myself past 40! Then, at 55 I started to dread the years because I was getting “old”.
But age is just a number and I don’t feel “old”. It is actually quite the opposite. Besides the fact that I have a slew of chronic health challenges, I feel like my life is just getting going and I am not going to let a number get in my way of seeing just where it all leads!
On the morning of my birthday, I recorded an interview with Christopher Snider for his podcast “Just Talking“. We talked about my mental health journey and how I have dealt with the stigma that always surrounds it. He asks very open questions and lets you run with your answers. My nervousness went away very quickly and I was just able to talk. I felt very good when we were done. In the past when I have spoken I often walked away wishing I had said this or not said that. This time I just walked away satisfied with how it went. The podcast will be out around Christmas and I will provide the link for it.
A half hour after the podcast was over I had my 3rd coaching call. I had slept through our Tuesday time and felt bad but when we talked she was fine with it and more concerned that I was feeling better. The half-hour went well.
Within 10 minutes of hanging up from that call, my contact from the office called to check in to see how things were going. I told her I had just got off from this weeks call and that things were going well.
I then took Miley out for a half hour run in the park and some of my friends sung happy birthday to me. It is so nice to have a group of friends that you can just relax with. We connect on a facebook group and some of us text each other; however, the relationships are casual and that is sometimes nice.
When I got home there was a message from the Health Coaching office. She had spoken to my participant who seemed to be as happy with the pairing as I am. That really made my day.
When I came home I checked my email and Facebook. I had well over 100 messages wishing me a Happy Birthday. They were from all over the world and from my pain groups, prayer groups, a cooking community, the dog park, our rescue dog group (Miley’s sibling families), friends from school and more. If I ever had a doubt that I wasn’t liked (and I have had many), it was vanquished by each and every message.
I had planned to make a simple gluten-free vanilla cake with fudge frosting but decided I just wanted to enjoy the rest of the day. So, off to DQ for an ice cream cake. Neither Hubby nor I tolerate much dairy, but it was my birthday and I wanted an ice cream cake!
Hubby’s parents and brother came over with Costco pizza and we had a little party.
It was a quiet birthday, but that was what I wanted. Hubby had asked if I wanted a party because it was a milestone birthday and I said no, just family would be nice. I am not big on celebrations as I am no social butterfly…not to mention I tire out easily, especially when there is a lot going on.
So now what?
I will take one day at a time, enjoy my life, and see what the next years have in store. I have lived 20 years longer than I thought I would so maybe I have another 20 or more ahead!