I have always marveled at the process from which the lowly little caterpillar turns into the beautiful butterfly.
I won’t go into the graphic details, but it isn’t easy. The caterpillar spends most of its time eating leaves and molting until it just can’t eat any more. Then it hangs upside down and builds a cocoon, or chrysalis, around itself. While in the cocoon it transforms into wings, legs, antennae and body until it is ready to be set free. Even that process is not an easy one as it has to push its way out of the silky yet strong cocoon. But all of this effort is worth it as one of the most beautiful creatures on this earth emerges to fly to freedom.
My counselor recently told me that my affinity for butterflies was very fitting as I started out with very low self-esteem and fought my way through a life of challenges to emerge into the beautiful and strong woman I am today. I totally agree.
While I would never say I am happy to have bipolar, chronic pain, a past of being abused and controlled, etc., I know that God allowed me to go through these things so that I would become the vibrant woman He had planned all along.
Even though I will always have my challenges, I really do feel free. I love the words Bernie Taupin wrote for Elton John in “Someone Saved My Life Tonight”:
“Sweet freedom whispered in my ear
You’re a butterfly
And butterflies are free to fly
Fly away, high away bye bye”
But this butterfly is here to stay!